The Best Ever!!

Have you ever wondered if you ever just experienced the best ever of something? For instance, I had lobster in March that was delicious. What if that was the last, best lobster I have and will ever have? Did I appreciate it? The other night the sky was gorgeous. Was that the prettiest sunset I have ever seen? If it was then is it sad that I have experienced the prettiest I will ever see in my life and from here until I die I will not see another one as pretty? You can go on like this. Think about any topic...food, travel, holiday, sex, laughter. What if you are living the best there is now? Would you appreciate it better or would you be sad that you knew this was the best of the best and tomorrow will never live up to now. It is really interesting to think about.

I say live the best now...everyday. Live like every moment and every event is the best. If you can remember a better time, then vow next time you do that thing it will be better. Appreciate God's gift everyday!!!!

I watched Oprah while working out this afternoon and the episode was about weight loss. Bob Greene was on and he made a statement that made me think. He said, "Weight is a symptom of something that needs to change. You wake up and it's really a decision you have to make each day of your life." I thought about that for a little while. Since having children, my weight has got up and down several times. I know I need to lose at least 30 pounds. My best weight is 155. My most awesome weight is 145 but I like some curve in my body so if I could make it to 155, that would be AMAZING!! I have been working out a lot lately and have been trying to lose weight and I am not really losing that much. I tried to think , what is the symptom that needs to change? After much reflecting, I think the symptom is I need to find time for me and I need to find my new identity. Before children, it was easy. I was a speech pathologist and that was my identifying marker. I was a career women with a higher degree education. I liked how people looked at me. I felt smart and successful. Now that I am a stay at home mom, I am struggling with feeling smart and successful with that title. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mom. In fact, I am not for sure I really want to go back to being a speech pathologist. Maybe I want to go back to school and be an audiologist, or get a business degree, or just do something fun, like work at Pottery Barn Kids. Maybe I want to be known as a volunteer. I don't know but I think that not knowing, and the stress of raising a young family, has me eating the wrong foods and keeping weight on that I don't want on. It is time to start focusing on the symptom.

LIttle Pink Houses

I keep having this crazy thought in my head and I finally am finding time to blog about it. I have actually had lots of things to say but just haven't taken the time to write. Anyway, not quite two years ago my husband and I moved into this awesome 6000 square foot home on a golf course. The yard is just under a half acre but since it is on the golf course it feels much bigger. That is clearly a bonus because the golf course is always maintained and our yard just blends right in with it. Now that we have this great house with almost everything in it that we were wanting in our dream house, all I keep thinking about is selling it. Silly, huh? I just have this great desire to move to a small house where my kids have to share a room together. I want the house to have lots of land with a nice shed or small barn on it. I want goats and sheep. I want to be able to send my kids outside without worrying if they are playing in the front yard or bothering the golfers or too close to the street. I want them to know that just because you might be able to afford the nice things in life, that doesn't mean you have to buy them. That's a good lesson to learn.